The problem with finding the right balance of satisfying your “dark” nature with the persona you have been raised/conditioned to present to the world is that we tend to turn into a “Nostradamus”. Imagining all kinds of future scenarios that we have no way of knowing would actually happen or not.
One should focus on the present and what works NOW. Not later. Obstacles that may come can be dealt with less trepidation once you have created your “foundation”.
That foundation can’t be formed until you are capable of acknowledging every part of who you are.
We all live double lives. Although sometimes overwhelming, Finding Balance is not impossible to achieve.